|San Juan Island|
I am on the ferry that will take me to Orcas Island, part of the San Juan islands off the coast of Washington - my next stop. It is much colder than I am used to now after having been in Hawaii for 6 months. I am sitting with my hot coffee mesmerized by the water. I look out at the islands - there is something magical and healing for me in this environment. I am an islander at heart.
|Orcas of Orcas Island|
|Orcas Island |
(from Trip Advisor)
Donna, a wonderful and generous woman who is running the B&B with her husband, takes me to my room, small but homey, with a fireplace and heated floors. I can see the water from my room and I let this gift of being here wash over me. I breathe it in.
After getting settled in, I take a walk with the intention to find the local thrift shop so that I can get clothes for this adventure. I don't need many - I won't be here long, and I am trying to maintain my traveling lightly mode. I don’t have access to a car, but the walking is therapeutic.
I spend many of my days at rest, after a daily walk to the town or around the island. It is cool and brisk, but I love that I can walk without the sweat and humidity. The weather is mild during winter, so the adjustment really is minor. The water calls me even though it is winter. I take off my sneakers and socks and wade in the ocean. Cold! Wonderfully so...healing. I like being able to say that I actually got in, (albeit only to my ankles), no matter where I am. The shore is quite rocky, with limited sandy areas, but it is perfect for this visit.
A full moon rises over the water while I am there, and Donna lights a fire in the fire pit near the coast. It is cold, but I send out my gratitude and open myself up to reap what I desire. I am learning to trust that the Universe is providing for me, not only what I need but what I desire as well. I was given these two weeks of rest with ease. The money that I had earned at Kalani easily paid for these two weeks including my travel expenses. Money flows in, and out. In and out...
I didn’t meet many people, although everyone with whom I chatted with was nice. This really was a time of respite. I am reminded that this is a solo journey for I am still burnt out and I have nothing left to give, except to myself. I deal with those ingrained feelings, those that say this is selfish. I have heard this throughout my life. However, I am coming to know - in my being (not just intellectually) that this is not so. Taking care of yourself and putting yourself first is only an act of love, for everyone. We can certainly be thoughtful, compassionate and caring, but not at our own expense. I feel like the balance has been tipped way too long. I settle into the rhythm of this island that is different yet similar...I take care of myself and let others give to me. I am grateful for Donna, who recognizes that I am in need of nurturing.
As my time starts to draw near, I begin thinking of my next stop which is Vancouver, BC, where I will meet up with Randy, from Hawai’i, to do a Vipassana – a ten day silent retreat. I am anxious and excited, and I think the gift of this will definitely be a reconnection with my self, my spirit, and to make a shift from being burnt out. I am hoping this is so.
|San Juan Ferry|
I am on the ferry with a sense of excitement bubbling within me. I am heading in the right direction for me. I breathe in gratitude.